Quite frankly, I don't think I need one. That's not say I don't have goals and aspirations, because life would not be worth living without them. But I don't have one of these fast track first job, then marriage, then kids plans. I also have not ruled out the option of marriage and kids, or just marriage or just kids. I haven't made any of these cookie cutter goals yet because I don't think that I am ready. My heart is not ready to be anything at the moment. I am accepting my love, and giving as much as I can, which has in turn, sucked the life right out of me. We will work out the kinks as we come by them. My mantra for relationships is the same as my mantra for life. Take it as it comes. I think decisions are best made with the heart, and not the head anyway. The head is practical and careful. The heart is risky and vulnerable, and that is why the heart makes decisions best for the now and the head takes care of the consequences later.
Each day is new, each week fresher, and each month lightyears away from the last. I welcome change and heartache and bills and broken plates. These moments are what shape us. You are the most you when feeling with your heart. When you are loving. When you are hurting. When you are deciding. This is why we don't need ten year plans. Our brain and parents and educators have tricked us into thinking that goals have to be concrete. I think goals for happiness and forgiveness are just as fulfilling as a pair of Louboutin's.
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